liquid
life is so fickle. it takes almost nothing, just a second, just a moment, for it to be changed forever.
i woke up on the 26th of december of 2004, to find my life changed forever.
i went to hikkaduwa with my friends last month, and my life was changed forever.
i watched baz luhrmann’s romeo and juliet when i was 12, and it changed my life forever.
i was at smriti’s and suda’s wedding 2 years ago, and my life was changed by it forever.
cousin N met R, cousin D met D, 4 years ago, and it changed my life forever.
my aunt went cycling last sunday and my life was changed forever.
sometimes i’m terrified by the unpredictability, wishing i had more time to prepare for these profoundly good and bad ways in which my life is about to change for good, wishing i had time to strengthen my resolve or let down my guard.
sometimes i’m excited beyond comprehension by the sudden-ness of it all, the rush of not knowing what to expect, the element of ambiguity and surprise.
sometimes i am sick of all the change, tired of the constant liquidity, exhausted by the need to adjust.
sometimes i am bored of life as it is, buying time till something happens that will change the way things are infinitely, for eternity, waiting till something explodes or implodes to tip the balance and make things new. again.
sometimes i want to breathe a new life in, i want to live in new skin, i want a new world.
sometimes, just sometimes, i wish things didn’t change so drastically. i wish i could hold life the way it is, just the way it is, for a little while longer than fate has planned.
Arunelle
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Comment by Ero — May 12, 2006 @ 1:12 pm
It’ll always happen unexpectedly, no matter what it is that will change your life for ever, good, or bad. So it’ll always seem like it could have happened a little later than it did.. Everything happens for a reason.
Comment by Yanik — May 12, 2006 @ 2:45 pm
yes, everything happens for a reason. we just have to create the reason with our actions or interpretations. otherwise all will be meaningless chaos.
Comment by sittingnut — May 12, 2006 @ 4:23 pm
everything happens for a reason. amen to that!
Comment by Electra — May 13, 2006 @ 3:28 pm
Everything might have a cause but probably doesn’t happen for a reason. Each person might affix a different reason to something but that’s just each individual’s interpretation of a circumstance. Certain events in life that exposes the ‘meaningless chaos’ once in a while makes us see things in a different perspective, but before long things are forgotten and we go back to seeing the world and life through our prefered/conditioned choice of colored glasses.
I guess its coincidence that your post sorta talks of constant changes in life on a vesak day, it being one of the core principles of the buddhist philosophy as far as I know.
Comment by SpectralCentroid — May 13, 2006 @ 8:50 pm
It never gets easy dealing with change,especially since life seems to hit fast forward after you hit 16 and gets ridicolously fuzzy in your twenties! Guess the best way to try and deal with it is keep your sense of humour and adventure. The everything happening for a reason is comforting though when the world gets really tough.
Comment by childof25 — May 14, 2006 @ 6:58 am
The only constant thing in life…is change. To every thing, Turn Turn Turn…
Comment by PinkusFloydus — May 14, 2006 @ 10:36 pm